I Didn’t Know

God will send you trials I’ve heard some people say 

They can happen anywhere, they can happen any day

I was told when I was young to just follow the golden rule

God is love, he’s your friend,he could never be cruel

So if taking the one I love away from me is some sort of trial

You’ve taken my reason to live, you’ve taken away my smile

How am I supposed to continue without her by my side

Where are you now God, are you trying to hide

I built my life always believing that you would always be there

I built my family’s house to serve you, do you even care

It seems my house may not have been built on solid ground 

Just like a house of cards it has come tumbling down 

I’ve just realized this wasn’t a trial to test my faith in you

When my house collapsed you knew exactly what I would do

I really didn’t know the man that was deep inside of me

You knew how I would react, you just let me be

My heart is still broken, my life has now changed forever 

But I know God is with me, we will finish this last chapter together 

The Hug

Did you ever have just one of those days

When nothing ever seems to go your way 

Things don’t seem right and you wonder why

You feel like you just want to hide and cry

Everything has got you wound up so tight

Your mind is racing so you don’t sleep at night

I used to be able to share all my thoughts with you

But now that you’re gone I’m not sure what to do

I went to church because I was sure you’d be there

But I could not feel your presence anywhere

I ask myself, are you gone, am I now on my own

I’m still not sure if I can continue all alone

That same night I need some sleep so I close my eyes 

You are there in my dreams to my surprise 

You are beautiful and young again lying in our bed

You pull back the covers, “Get in here”, is what you said

I crawl in beside you, I can still see the look on your face

You wrap your arms around me, I feel your warm embrace 

I awake from the dream wondering if that hug was for real

I held you and you held me, your love I could feel

You knew I needed that hug and that you still really care

I should have known I’m not alone, you will always be there